wow, today was quite overwhelming, and it still is.
firstly the results, can't say i'm happy with them at all. but i've got nothing to complain about except myself. oh that sounds so cliche, right, because it's the same damn freaking ending every time. i dont even have the energy to say stuff like "im gonna do better", "i'll work harder" anymore. i feel tired, tired of myself.
there's this sudden rush of insecurity surrounding me. i dont know where it came from. it just suddenly struck me that twenty years down the road, when we all become different persons, what do i do? well obviously that won't be answered until that moment comes, it's more like i'm worried and don't know what i should feel and react now towards the us in future.
like RA. cruel but true i'd say i don't wanna know them anymore when that day comes. i don't wanna see everyone including myself turning complicated and superficial and becoming like.. a normal person. at that time, where do i derive my source of happiness from? thinking about this now makes me wanna end my life right away, which is such a wrong thought.
but i'm quite stubborn on breaking the ties with people when we all changed. i just feel that some things should stay the way they are and be kept like an art piece in a museum. i don't know if their values will go up though.
oh there's another ridiculous fact i just got to know today. it's so ridiculous and since the subject is not even worth mentioning, i shant waste my effort. you, and ridiculous things/people like you, should stay the way you are too. bye.
梁靜茹 昨天
假裝你不曾親吻他的臉
假裝你不曾靠在他的肩
假裝你不曾讚美他的眼
假裝你不曾記得他鼻子的弧線
雖然你現在躺在我身邊
雖然你現在只對我想念
雖然你現在說愛我不變
但為何你只抽他習慣的香煙
我可以佔有你眼睛全部的視線
在亮了燈的房間 你的心有一部份我卻看不見
我已經佔有你生命全部的時間
卻在意那些 你從來不說 我從來不問你的 昨天
I am LegendThe emotions portrayed in this movie just tore me apart.
I don't know if it's the excellent plot or the great acting by Will Smith that made me resonate so much with the main character. Honestly, the plot isn't new. Mutation has been used in just too many scientific movie plots.
I guess it's the loneliness. I felt so much pain when the main character had to part with his family. People might say he is lucky, he was among the 1% population on earth that was immune to the virus, he had the chance to survive while others did not, he had the strong belief that he must
light up the darkness and save everyone. But I actually feel so sad for him. He had to live alone in the big New York City, could only talk to his dog and the mannequins. He watched recorded TV programmes from the past to entertain himself. He set two alarms on his watch to remind himself of sunset. After his dog got killed, he went onto a suicidal revenge. If I were him, I guess I would have killed myself long ago.
And yet he lived on, and refused to go along with another survivor to the "survivor's colony". He kept reassuring that he can stop it, but I don't know if he was reassuring others or actually himself.
I think the plot carried much more meaning than what was shown explicitly. But I don't really know how to put them down in words.
The virus outbreak happened in 2009 in the movie. All I could think of is, if it really happens, I will never want to be the last survivor.
i need a more meaningful life.
promo's not even half way through and i can already hear/see people complaining about results.
actually i hate discussing the tests after taking them. maybe just being cowardly. but i dont like it.
