lol. one second ago you can be so happy and enthu about everything and make everyone run all over the place for whatever you want, then the next second you just disregard whatever effort made by others, simply because you get sick of it for no reason. who are you to do this to people? and who am i to even care?
you know, i really thought you were such a nice person. i could count the good things of you and i make the cancellation when i see something bad about you. maybe you are caring less, maybe you don't care anymore. you put stress on others for no obvious reason, i am so sick of finding reasons, so bloody sick of cracking my head trying to figure out what i've done wrong to deserve what you did.
but thanks to you, i start to care less now too. whatever it ends up like doesn't really concern me anymore. sometimes you really aren't much better than THOSE, but whatever.
lucky you, someone still can stand your crap, and is liking it very much. it really amuses me. maybe i used to like it as much, when i didnt realize it was all crap. but now i do. to pour any of my true feeling or emotions or dreams or aspirations to you, is just like jumping down an endless pit. there's only giving endlessly and receiving occasionally, i can never appreciate things like that, so sorry, i'm giving it up.
first time was heartbreak, second was a wakeup, and now i'm out of this shit.
so go on with whatever you want, i'll be me, thanks =)