lol. one second ago you can be so happy and enthu about everything and make everyone run all over the place for whatever you want, then the next second you just disregard whatever effort made by others, simply because you get sick of it for no reason. who are you to do this to people? and who am i to even care?
you know, i really thought you were such a nice person. i could count the good things of you and i make the cancellation when i see something bad about you. maybe you are caring less, maybe you don't care anymore. you put stress on others for no obvious reason, i am so sick of finding reasons, so bloody sick of cracking my head trying to figure out what i've done wrong to deserve what you did.
but thanks to you, i start to care less now too. whatever it ends up like doesn't really concern me anymore. sometimes you really aren't much better than THOSE, but whatever.
lucky you, someone still can stand your crap, and is liking it very much. it really amuses me. maybe i used to like it as much, when i didnt realize it was all crap. but now i do. to pour any of my true feeling or emotions or dreams or aspirations to you, is just like jumping down an endless pit. there's only giving endlessly and receiving occasionally, i can never appreciate things like that, so sorry, i'm giving it up.
first time was heartbreak, second was a wakeup, and now i'm out of this shit.
so go on with whatever you want, i'll be me, thanks =)
this isn't a nice feeling, but i'm so tired of pouring my emotions out, so whatever feeling it is, let it be.
and i don't know how much further i can go with all of these.
如果你从没出现 我会不会 觉得快乐一些
我想如果我从没出现,你一定会觉得快乐一些.
i bought my prom dress..finally.
lmn's super nice to accompany me and shop with me for so long, xie xie ni!
now i'm very hungry, but no food, and mum just went straight to bed after coming home...very very hungry...hungry...hungry...hungry...
got back bio and physics results today, lol. my physics is really just PHAILED. ok not like i'm gonna take it in JC (or am i?), i don't even think i can do H1. i think i'm slowly adapted to the fact that i suck at physics already. bio was better than i expected. in fact it's the best paper i've ever had in my whole life for bio. but yh said it's very common to choose the combi of bio chem nowadays, and it's gonna be hard to find jobs later on.. it's kinda true..but i'm not talented enough to do special subjects like arts. maybe i should consider econs after all..it's at least something that won't get outdated.
there's just one last math test to go and i guess that's it. and i must pass this. grr. sakae sushi's salary will be released on 8oct but i'm not sure about pepper lunch... hope i can get my mum something nice as her belated birthday present =(
so i should feel happy that i didn't get my skin sunburnt or anything, right?
and i should stop this. zzz.
just came back from work... seriously OT today but no extra money T_T
why do those people all like to come in and order at last minute!? and what's more, there wasn't enough rice and salmon in the end...
i no longer feel as tired after work nowadays, guess i'm slowly getting used to working there.
there was a new guy today, i was very happy at first as i'm finally not the "newest" anymore. but it turns out that the new guy's kinda bad. i mean in terms of his common sense and service. i was having a real big headache when it's my turn to do dish up, as him, who's doing service, was of no help at all. of course i was screwing up as well, couldnt get all the pepper rice on time, and i still have to weigh every bowl of rice... -__-
ok, next time i'll try not to do closing. and if i have to, i'll try to finish before 1045..grr... the couple was helping me today again, but i still couldnt finish on time. feeling very sorry as everytime they'll have to help me do part of my closing job...
ok, so tomorrow is still a holiday. probably no work, and i'll rot at home the whole day. we all planned to go www, and hell yea i'm just so damn unlucky. wth lah. and obviously there won't be another three having the same bad luck as me, so you guys have fun. and that's what i said in my sms to yh as well. but i'm feeling kinda lol and whatever. when whatever whatever suggestion whatever about the more than half don't turn up then don't go, zzz so whatever. it's not like we've never planned to go www before, we did quite a few times somemore. and almost everytime it'll turn out that someone's "unlucky" or just not free, and we'll just forget about it. i remember everytime we wanna go out, and fy or maybe someone else's not free, i'll feel so regretted if we just go out without her that we'll just forfeit the plan. and when sph told me her ankle probably cannot make it, i was really thinking, wtf? then what's the point of us going without her? you see, i don't feel comfortable going out as a group when just anyone of us cannot make it. but lol, obviously all along i was the only one who felt that way. whatever lah. ok. and it's not like we'll have somemore chance to go out together even, lol, with everyone crazy at work or doing whatever stuff, and the bloody different option timings we have, i'll say goodbye right after FAM, but i dont think anyone cares, so why should i? lol. not like my presence or my absence makes a diff, right?
bye.
