gemini.
random acad, we'll always have one another.
r`cube will rock!
is a fujoshi, loves mayday.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
im losing grip of it.
no no no i dont want this to happen!!!
i think i suck, and that's why my life sucks u see.
no no no no no argh!
it's just so hard for the two of us to talk NORMALLY.
maybe
maybe everything's been wrong.
do u feel it too?
losing.
or it's just me
LOL
no no no i dont want this to happen!!!
i think i suck, and that's why my life sucks u see.
no no no no no argh!
it's just so hard for the two of us to talk NORMALLY.
maybe
maybe everything's been wrong.
do u feel it too?
losing.
or it's just me
LOL
2nd edition o.O?
there you gooo.
i added in our first two photos which started all the rest haha
and i feel so guilty keep on uploading on xs.to and putting onto blogger so this time blogger shall take the load?
Sunday, January 28, 2007
after 1 week's effort of hunting for crumpler bags...
i wanna do something!
aarrrrrggghhh!
aarrrrrggghhh!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
nothing to post actually...
and...ok...
i live a life that seriously sucks
and...ok...
i live a life that seriously sucks
Friday, January 19, 2007
OBS
i know this is not the right time to blog. i've just came back from OBS, a five day four night camp. i've not done my unpacking, i've not bathed and i didnt rest. but i want to post all of these, very badly. i am scared i will lose them, i am afraid that i will forget them. ok, actually the fact is that i'll probably remember this experience forever.
i can remember how badly i wanted to go home on the first day. we reached camp 2 with our heavy luggages (which afterwards i realize are not heavy at all compare to our backpack). all i thought about was how much i miss my bed and my computer and my mum and her cooking and fans and air-cons and how unlucky i was to be in camp 2, which means mobile(we've gotta pitch tents and cook our our food, the breakfasts and lunches are always dry rations, we sleep on ground sheets which were still wet and the tents were pitched on grass patches which were muddy because of the rainy days.) and these all really suck. yea. that was what i thought.
oh we got split up into different groups, i was not with any of my really close friends. instead, i've got more than half of the group are people i dont know. please dont scold me, haha. first impression was always wrong. in the beginning, geri and keashia just looked so dao. yuanjun and sydney looked so strict and serious, my (pronounced as 'me') and meo looked so quiet and blur.
the first two days i was practically suffering most of the time. despite of the fun activities, our team spirit was totally not there. we kept dragging our feet wherever we went, whatever we did. we were always late and kept on asking for more time from our instructor, Bibi. i think we really let bibi down a lot during those days. she gathered with us every night and talked to us about what we had not done enough and ways to improve. she was so ...NICE! yes my vocab's limited, but nice is a combination of all the good characteristics i could think of of bibi.
on the second day we went kayaking. it was very fun. and that was the beginning of our team bonding. to make sure we can move fast and straight, all the three person on the tri-yak must be very coordinated. we used the most original and effective method, shouting "left", "right" together as a team. we started really slow and encountered thunderstorm which was followed by evil sun. but somehow, after 1 hour or so, we suddenly got the hang of it. i dont know whether it was because we started to work together and cooperate as a team, or that we were attracted by the "bonus" that we would have if we managed to arrive at the campsite early: a dip in the quarry. as there would be no place and condition to bathe that day, we all started to work really hard and the kayak moved really fast. finally we got the dip and everyone was so happy. that was something we gained by really putting effort into it as a group. and then at the quarry campsite we had an "anty" night. our tents were practically full of ants and yes, we SLEPT with them. ants are really good friends aren't they. haha.
then the next morning was building of the raft. we were given four long poles and four short ones, four barrels and fourteen long ropes. we were given 70 mins, it is really long according to bibi, because she said the other groups only got 45 mins. ok, whatever. altho we had three guides in our group, we still didnt manage to finish it. it took me quite awhile to realize what we had done wrong. we were not working hard enough until the very last minute. because 70 mins seems like such a big number, we did not hurry for almost half of the time. when the time was up, the instructors simply said, ok, undo everything and change into ur trekkin attire. we all knew what awaited for us would be a long and tiring journey with the super heavy backpack and ponchos and ground sheets and tents and two water bottles filled with two litres of water each and four jerricans only half filled but meant for 20 or was it 40 litres of water. before the trekking starts, again bibi shared a lot of her own experiences and thoughts with us, which really raised our spirit. we walked and chatted and took turns to carry heavy things and we waited for those who were slower and cheered them on. i think all of us should thank yuan jun and sydney for being such good leaders. they were leading and cheering the whole group up. u guys really rock!
after searching for all the check points and doing roadblock, we reached our destination, the super nice camp 1. u'll really be shocked by the difference between these two camps if u've been to both. in fact they are suppose to be equal as it was randomly decided that who were to go to camp 1 and who to camp 2. it is so big, bigger than rgs. ok rgs is not very big, i think camp 1 is almost like the size of rjc. that type that u will get lost while looking for toilets and stuff. we were all amazed and claimed that that was the first sight of civilization after three whole days. it was actually a bit exaggerating. we were shouting stupid stuff like "omg did i just see tables" and "whaaaat! fans!" that was the moment we started to appreciate stuff. we had our only proper catered meal that night. i could remember very clearly that we had rice, curry chicken, some dark green colour veggie which i didnt really know what it is but still liked, and some drink that tasted like grass-jelly drink.when we went to wash the utensils, amanda and me actually just drank the water from the tap using our hands, and we claimed that the water was sweet. who knows whether it is, i only know that it FELT sweet. all these things might look normal to u and all the residential people who spent most of their time in camp 1: catered food, clean canteen with utensils provided, tables and chairs, fans, proper buildings and dorms, clean toilet cubicals and bathrooms and everything. i have all of them at home and in school and i didnt realize how much they needed to be appreciated until the moment i stepped into camp 1.
that night we spent very long sitting beside the nice swimming pool in camp 1 (unfortunately we were not allowed to go in), playing games and talking about stuff. we laughed at each other's jokes even thou they were lame. and we talked about so many things. we were excited and happy and felt so bonded as a group. bibi told us about her training camp as an obs instructor, and the 21 days course that she's been thru. everything just felt so nice and ordinary. we were so happy together.the next day was climbing the inverse tower. i will not forget bibi's cute drawing and our very very presentable result sheet. i seriously didnt think that i could make it to the top, seriously. after seeing everybody reaching the top i got even more stress. esther kept on saying we spent 1 whole hour on climbing it ( i was paired with jiali which was quite wrong cos both of us were scared like wth!) haha. whatever. but we did it. i didnt allow jiali to give up half way, and she supported me all the way thru too. the people below never got impatient with us just because we spent very long. everybody managed to make it till the end!!! some of them even completed both towers. i shant go into anymore details because this entry has been long and naggy and plain enough i guess.
so, i'll never forget all of u: bibi, our instructor who refused to respond when we called her instructor, meo and my the two lovely vietamese scholars, sydney the food ic who was practically leading us in almost everything, laura who is super cute and cooked the rice for us, yuanjun who can write well and talk well and quite emo, li fang and ke jia, they looked quiet and shy but they were not! geri who seemed super dao when i first saw her but she is so not, keashia is also cute. she likes to say "im shy" and points her finger at all directions when she talks, irlisa who was very helpful and got many insect bites, and also amanda jiali esther ling hui who are in the same class as me this year!!!
this was what we did during the 30 secs post obs presentation today. i think not many ppl really heard us but i like this quite a lot.
here's a person there's a person and another little person
dirty person itchy person person person burnt (sunburn)
i was once a dome tent, i lived with the bugs.
i never met marco polo and that really sucks. (our watch name is marco polo!)
i was only four nights there but i miss my mum.
i dont mean to complain but i've got ant bites on my bum.
have you every seen a kayak kiss a dead fish on the kayak
trekking trekking shoulders aching baking in the sun.
is this what we eat now, is it all so cold.
is it made of maggi mee baked beans butter roll.
now our song is getting thin our clothes are really yuck
but we don't care so let us go and give bibi a hug.
=) photo to be updated.
p.s. this is actually longer than my 1200 words commonwealth essay.
i can remember how badly i wanted to go home on the first day. we reached camp 2 with our heavy luggages (which afterwards i realize are not heavy at all compare to our backpack). all i thought about was how much i miss my bed and my computer and my mum and her cooking and fans and air-cons and how unlucky i was to be in camp 2, which means mobile(we've gotta pitch tents and cook our our food, the breakfasts and lunches are always dry rations, we sleep on ground sheets which were still wet and the tents were pitched on grass patches which were muddy because of the rainy days.) and these all really suck. yea. that was what i thought.
oh we got split up into different groups, i was not with any of my really close friends. instead, i've got more than half of the group are people i dont know. please dont scold me, haha. first impression was always wrong. in the beginning, geri and keashia just looked so dao. yuanjun and sydney looked so strict and serious, my (pronounced as 'me') and meo looked so quiet and blur.
the first two days i was practically suffering most of the time. despite of the fun activities, our team spirit was totally not there. we kept dragging our feet wherever we went, whatever we did. we were always late and kept on asking for more time from our instructor, Bibi. i think we really let bibi down a lot during those days. she gathered with us every night and talked to us about what we had not done enough and ways to improve. she was so ...NICE! yes my vocab's limited, but nice is a combination of all the good characteristics i could think of of bibi.
on the second day we went kayaking. it was very fun. and that was the beginning of our team bonding. to make sure we can move fast and straight, all the three person on the tri-yak must be very coordinated. we used the most original and effective method, shouting "left", "right" together as a team. we started really slow and encountered thunderstorm which was followed by evil sun. but somehow, after 1 hour or so, we suddenly got the hang of it. i dont know whether it was because we started to work together and cooperate as a team, or that we were attracted by the "bonus" that we would have if we managed to arrive at the campsite early: a dip in the quarry. as there would be no place and condition to bathe that day, we all started to work really hard and the kayak moved really fast. finally we got the dip and everyone was so happy. that was something we gained by really putting effort into it as a group. and then at the quarry campsite we had an "anty" night. our tents were practically full of ants and yes, we SLEPT with them. ants are really good friends aren't they. haha.
then the next morning was building of the raft. we were given four long poles and four short ones, four barrels and fourteen long ropes. we were given 70 mins, it is really long according to bibi, because she said the other groups only got 45 mins. ok, whatever. altho we had three guides in our group, we still didnt manage to finish it. it took me quite awhile to realize what we had done wrong. we were not working hard enough until the very last minute. because 70 mins seems like such a big number, we did not hurry for almost half of the time. when the time was up, the instructors simply said, ok, undo everything and change into ur trekkin attire. we all knew what awaited for us would be a long and tiring journey with the super heavy backpack and ponchos and ground sheets and tents and two water bottles filled with two litres of water each and four jerricans only half filled but meant for 20 or was it 40 litres of water. before the trekking starts, again bibi shared a lot of her own experiences and thoughts with us, which really raised our spirit. we walked and chatted and took turns to carry heavy things and we waited for those who were slower and cheered them on. i think all of us should thank yuan jun and sydney for being such good leaders. they were leading and cheering the whole group up. u guys really rock!
after searching for all the check points and doing roadblock, we reached our destination, the super nice camp 1. u'll really be shocked by the difference between these two camps if u've been to both. in fact they are suppose to be equal as it was randomly decided that who were to go to camp 1 and who to camp 2. it is so big, bigger than rgs. ok rgs is not very big, i think camp 1 is almost like the size of rjc. that type that u will get lost while looking for toilets and stuff. we were all amazed and claimed that that was the first sight of civilization after three whole days. it was actually a bit exaggerating. we were shouting stupid stuff like "omg did i just see tables" and "whaaaat! fans!" that was the moment we started to appreciate stuff. we had our only proper catered meal that night. i could remember very clearly that we had rice, curry chicken, some dark green colour veggie which i didnt really know what it is but still liked, and some drink that tasted like grass-jelly drink.when we went to wash the utensils, amanda and me actually just drank the water from the tap using our hands, and we claimed that the water was sweet. who knows whether it is, i only know that it FELT sweet. all these things might look normal to u and all the residential people who spent most of their time in camp 1: catered food, clean canteen with utensils provided, tables and chairs, fans, proper buildings and dorms, clean toilet cubicals and bathrooms and everything. i have all of them at home and in school and i didnt realize how much they needed to be appreciated until the moment i stepped into camp 1.
that night we spent very long sitting beside the nice swimming pool in camp 1 (unfortunately we were not allowed to go in), playing games and talking about stuff. we laughed at each other's jokes even thou they were lame. and we talked about so many things. we were excited and happy and felt so bonded as a group. bibi told us about her training camp as an obs instructor, and the 21 days course that she's been thru. everything just felt so nice and ordinary. we were so happy together.the next day was climbing the inverse tower. i will not forget bibi's cute drawing and our very very presentable result sheet. i seriously didnt think that i could make it to the top, seriously. after seeing everybody reaching the top i got even more stress. esther kept on saying we spent 1 whole hour on climbing it ( i was paired with jiali which was quite wrong cos both of us were scared like wth!) haha. whatever. but we did it. i didnt allow jiali to give up half way, and she supported me all the way thru too. the people below never got impatient with us just because we spent very long. everybody managed to make it till the end!!! some of them even completed both towers. i shant go into anymore details because this entry has been long and naggy and plain enough i guess.
so, i'll never forget all of u: bibi, our instructor who refused to respond when we called her instructor, meo and my the two lovely vietamese scholars, sydney the food ic who was practically leading us in almost everything, laura who is super cute and cooked the rice for us, yuanjun who can write well and talk well and quite emo, li fang and ke jia, they looked quiet and shy but they were not! geri who seemed super dao when i first saw her but she is so not, keashia is also cute. she likes to say "im shy" and points her finger at all directions when she talks, irlisa who was very helpful and got many insect bites, and also amanda jiali esther ling hui who are in the same class as me this year!!!
this was what we did during the 30 secs post obs presentation today. i think not many ppl really heard us but i like this quite a lot.
here's a person there's a person and another little person
dirty person itchy person person person burnt (sunburn)
i was once a dome tent, i lived with the bugs.
i never met marco polo and that really sucks. (our watch name is marco polo!)
i was only four nights there but i miss my mum.
i dont mean to complain but i've got ant bites on my bum.
have you every seen a kayak kiss a dead fish on the kayak
trekking trekking shoulders aching baking in the sun.
is this what we eat now, is it all so cold.
is it made of maggi mee baked beans butter roll.
now our song is getting thin our clothes are really yuck
but we don't care so let us go and give bibi a hug.
=) photo to be updated.
p.s. this is actually longer than my 1200 words commonwealth essay.
Labels: obs
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Infection
just finished reading this BL book titled 'infection'
lol...it is written on the cover that those below 18 are not allowed to read
hahaha...heck them
but it's really really sad. been reading too much of happy ending and all start to sound cliche. i must say this is a nice book and i like the ending. because if i were the main character in the story, i would have done the same. between seeing ur loved one dying in front of u and feeling helpless, i would rather believe that i'll meet him in the heaven soon. and they were infected by the same kinda disease in the end. the professor in the story is really lunatic. he injected the innocent boy with another type of bacteria and lied that it is the same type which made his lover died. he was just taking revenge on unrelated people for his lover who died in a biochemical war. and the main character was trying so hard to cure the boy (now u know what is BL dont u), but a wrong one. so when the thought they've found the correct cure and injected it into that boy's body, the bacteria reacted and the boy died =( and i shant say how the main character got infected by the same type of bacteria xD he did that on purpose anyway. and that's the part of M18 xD
so it's sad but after all still a sweet story x)
i shall introduce it to fuying. and jialei shall drool over it cos she is too young(mentally) to read xD
lol...it is written on the cover that those below 18 are not allowed to read
hahaha...heck them
but it's really really sad. been reading too much of happy ending and all start to sound cliche. i must say this is a nice book and i like the ending. because if i were the main character in the story, i would have done the same. between seeing ur loved one dying in front of u and feeling helpless, i would rather believe that i'll meet him in the heaven soon. and they were infected by the same kinda disease in the end. the professor in the story is really lunatic. he injected the innocent boy with another type of bacteria and lied that it is the same type which made his lover died. he was just taking revenge on unrelated people for his lover who died in a biochemical war. and the main character was trying so hard to cure the boy (now u know what is BL dont u), but a wrong one. so when the thought they've found the correct cure and injected it into that boy's body, the bacteria reacted and the boy died =( and i shant say how the main character got infected by the same type of bacteria xD he did that on purpose anyway. and that's the part of M18 xD
so it's sad but after all still a sweet story x)
i shall introduce it to fuying. and jialei shall drool over it cos she is too young(mentally) to read xD
Thursday, January 11, 2007
uh.
now i know how nice miss kong was.
but never mind, things gotta move on, me too.
and i think im really weird.
im mugging math textbook
ok if u call it one, cos we never bring it to school
all we did was um pay for it?
yea and now im sort of reading through and doing those practices inside
i think my brain starts to rot after the long holiday
after thinking over and over about all those
i became so lousy at math now
i hate hearing ppl saying that i was from a math class
i mean SO WHAT. DAMN.
never mind.
obs is coming soon, i dont know if i really want it.
the ppl and stuff.
that's all.
but never mind, things gotta move on, me too.
and i think im really weird.
im mugging math textbook
ok if u call it one, cos we never bring it to school
all we did was um pay for it?
yea and now im sort of reading through and doing those practices inside
i think my brain starts to rot after the long holiday
after thinking over and over about all those
i became so lousy at math now
i hate hearing ppl saying that i was from a math class
i mean SO WHAT. DAMN.
never mind.
obs is coming soon, i dont know if i really want it.
the ppl and stuff.
that's all.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
it's so heavy
it might just crush down on me at moment
can i give up and be a nobody?
please, let go?
both you and me.
what i just said was not true.
i didnt mean it, really.
can i take that back?
i want my tears back
i cant get a single drip of them out now
and yet my heart's in the saddest state ever.
it might just crush down on me at moment
can i give up and be a nobody?
please, let go?
both you and me.
what i just said was not true.
i didnt mean it, really.
can i take that back?
i want my tears back
i cant get a single drip of them out now
and yet my heart's in the saddest state ever.
uh huh
uh huh
where is my way.
uh huh
where is my way.
Sunday, January 7, 2007
boredom kills...
i am bored.
not because i have nothing to do.
i have an essay to write.
lotsa things to buy for obs.
books that are due on 18th jan to read.
grah. i am bored
i miss him.
darn darn darn.
nothing to blog.
i should just DIE!
or maybe not. still have a 700+ pages physics textbook to read
a great thing it is, don't u think so?
i am bored.
not because i have nothing to do.
i have an essay to write.
lotsa things to buy for obs.
books that are due on 18th jan to read.
grah. i am bored
i miss him.
darn darn darn.
nothing to blog.
i should just DIE!
or maybe not. still have a 700+ pages physics textbook to read
a great thing it is, don't u think so?
Thursday, January 4, 2007
sorry, just to correct a mistake i've made in the previous post.
i am not in a clique
instead,
im in a gang.
thanks for ur attention.
and happy gang-ing everybody.
i am not in a clique
instead,
im in a gang.
thanks for ur attention.
and happy gang-ing everybody.
new day?
seems like everyone's been blogging about their new school term/new class/new teacher/new whatever.
well i dont have much to say on this. met with form teacher and cle teacher today. they were OKAY. really. i think some of the classmates may not like them. i could tell from their facial expresson when we were having ice breakers today. i dont wanna judge. form's rules were acceptable for me. except one, that's the weekly journal. maybe not her rules but the levels or the schools. anyway, i shall just crap something outta nowhere and give it to her, for the peace between the two parties. co-form, ok. it is quite obvious that she planned the ice breakers. actually i have nothing much to say about her. i feel like being nice ok. amazing?
this class is definitely cliquish. it could be seen anywhere, anytime. i dont think there's anything for me to say so far, since i am also in a clique. i just hope they will make life easier for everybody, same as what i planned to do.
bought textbooks, finally. the physics book that costs 51 bucks is colour printed. grrr. no wonder it's so heavy. but i still hvnt gotten the chinese ones. it is damn useless to get them, seriously. my sec 1 and 2 books are brand new still. any juniors wanna buy them at a cheaper price? x(
i need to get more info on how the canada high sch system works. i need to prepare for tofel exam, i need to get nelson textbooks. anybody knows abt where to get them? is it even common? gosh.
the weather was bad, couldnt go out for jogging these few days. and i shant tell u what i did in substitute, i dont want ur jaw to kiss the floor and ur saliva to be pulled down by gravity.
last but not least i gotta blog, hope hwee fang and emelia get approved.
so that tomorrow will be a better day.
well i dont have much to say on this. met with form teacher and cle teacher today. they were OKAY. really. i think some of the classmates may not like them. i could tell from their facial expresson when we were having ice breakers today. i dont wanna judge. form's rules were acceptable for me. except one, that's the weekly journal. maybe not her rules but the levels or the schools. anyway, i shall just crap something outta nowhere and give it to her, for the peace between the two parties. co-form, ok. it is quite obvious that she planned the ice breakers. actually i have nothing much to say about her. i feel like being nice ok. amazing?
this class is definitely cliquish. it could be seen anywhere, anytime. i dont think there's anything for me to say so far, since i am also in a clique. i just hope they will make life easier for everybody, same as what i planned to do.
bought textbooks, finally. the physics book that costs 51 bucks is colour printed. grrr. no wonder it's so heavy. but i still hvnt gotten the chinese ones. it is damn useless to get them, seriously. my sec 1 and 2 books are brand new still. any juniors wanna buy them at a cheaper price? x(
i need to get more info on how the canada high sch system works. i need to prepare for tofel exam, i need to get nelson textbooks. anybody knows abt where to get them? is it even common? gosh.
the weather was bad, couldnt go out for jogging these few days. and i shant tell u what i did in substitute, i dont want ur jaw to kiss the floor and ur saliva to be pulled down by gravity.
last but not least i gotta blog, hope hwee fang and emelia get approved.
so that tomorrow will be a better day.
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
all we need is a small miracle.
let's just have some faith.
and im sorry i cant reply u honestly when u asked me what i wanna do in future.
i hope i can plan my future with u, i really hope so.
and that's why i am doing all these.
i hope u know, and dont push me away.
let's just have some faith.
and im sorry i cant reply u honestly when u asked me what i wanna do in future.
i hope i can plan my future with u, i really hope so.
and that's why i am doing all these.
i hope u know, and dont push me away.
dammit.
i hate you class allocation.
GO TO HELL
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
U MADE ME A BAD PERSON AND MY FREN A SAD PERSON
GO TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DIG UR EYEBALLS OUT WHOEVER'S THE SHITTY PERSON ALLOCATED US.
i hate you class allocation.
GO TO HELL
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
U MADE ME A BAD PERSON AND MY FREN A SAD PERSON
GO TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DIG UR EYEBALLS OUT WHOEVER'S THE SHITTY PERSON ALLOCATED US.
