i'll probably be standing on the ground of sg at this time tomorrow. or maybe not, but still on the aeroplane. so what. yes it is indeed tiring to take flights like this. to me, when the excitment of getting to a new place no longer exists, it cant be called travelling. so what am i doing here, moving to and fro on the same path? i suppose it was to search for something. something i've lost long ago. but after such a long time of searching, i found nothing. if there must be something that i'v gained, then it is this force that sliced my hope bit by bit, making them forever unable to be pieced back together. so should i give up? or should i still live? it is as if i am already not living for any reason. not any valid one. in the past few months or rather years, i've never stopped asking myself this question. what do you live for? i guess that was the reason why i am always searching. i am so scared that the answer will be null.
i was suppose to write about something that made me very angry today, but i've decided not to. the things are always like that, the people too. i suddenly feel so hopeless as i dont possess any power to change them. i have to leave things that way. i have to leave those people alone. basically i am nothing to them, and maybe i am nothing to a lot more people, and maybe, maybe, i'll continue to be nothing, to someone who means a lot to me.
so that's it. enough said. life's as crappy as it was. some wonderful thoughts had just gone lose from my brain and got converted into words to be shown up here. if they disturbed u, i am truely sorry.
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