i cried.
i dont know what else to say and what to expect for.
and i am probably the first to see the class list, also the first or the only one to cry.
dont ask me what i cry for, i just did.
now it's time to think about how i should survive in it. 308. i can tell u very honestly i dont like it. i have so much to do, so much to accomplish, so many wishes to fulfill, and here i am having a failure right from the start.
u know what, i suddenly found a way out. if i cant change the class i am to be in, if i cant change the people around me, how about i'll change myself. if there's no other classes i can go, if there's no way i can live with people i want to, how about going to other countries. how about me giving up all these and living with people i dont know. how about me changing myself, and let all have peace.
canada.
i dont know how much more i need to suffer, i dont know how much more unexpected are ahead waiting for me. i dont want them, i dont want u. i dont want all these shit. can i go away? can i just leave all these behind? u force them to me when i dont like them, and u snatch them away when i fell for them. u know what, u shouldnt have given me the chance to live, because now, living means suffering for me.
so since i cant make people give up on things, how about me giving up on myself. nobody wants to be loser, then let me be it. nobody wants me to have peace, then i leave peace to u all, i want no more hurt. such a little request just seems too much for me to have. i wanted so little from the start and u gave me so much. i wanted to lose none of them and u took all of them away.
i know i could have meant nothing more than shit to u. and it's time for shit to go away.
